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A few days ago I drop to the floor after my legs gave out. I was working late at night because my pain wouldn't allow me to sleep. I only take power naps and never have a normal night anyway so I always get up till I can lay back down. This night was twisted from the start. I laid down with so much on my mind and should have known that was not a good sign to being with. When I am like that things happen to me and its like a worning sign I need pay attent...

This morning I woke feeling blessed I don't have the issues that others live through. As I learned how to survive my own struggles I find them easyer to live and I thank U Lord. Even being Banned from a website networking my work has empowered me. Things where going fine till outside personal relationships and interest got between me and the website owner without me knowing at first. I was posting and made friends as normal speaking my mind likes and dis...

Feeling so sick today but I have join a group of other artist who seem really into being creative and supportive of each other without the bad ego. Its important to me because I can't let stress take me out. Unable to do my work its important I find ways to express my creativity. Having problems with my memory more than normal but its due to being busy. I don't normally get out that often in the summer because of the heat but its the first...

U eva been caught in the biggest LIE eva told making U look like the fool U are for doing it? U eva regret the sadness associated with some wrong U done or disappointment in yourself for being so stupid? How can words eva explain when now there is no trust even if U could? I told a lie and lived it so well I even convinced myself it was true till I got found out. Thing is I got tired of the life of a lie and sabotaged myself so i was outted. I didn't hav...

We have a new home, moving in soon so I'm excited and very happy its in a place I can have a garden and live in a small town near enough to a big city I can play. I can't work in the garden but love having seeing it being worked and have fresh food. I have always like living in an area I can get out and not have to stress where I'm going. On the other hand I love having so many different things to get into and the shopping. With my health only going to get worse...

After the heat all most took us out on Monday I'm still up at 1am trying to recover from the sickly feeling I felt all day. Being in the heat is the worst thing that could happen to me and we in for a few more days of the temp in the high digits. Still I manage to be creative so the day was not a total loss. I try to come up with a jewelry design, write or maybe come up with some art ideas for poetic illustrations. All ways trying to keep the juice flowi...

Today I decided to start this Journal because my thoughts are rampit and I need a way to slow them down. I have learned in the past thats not a good thing for me and I must maintain control of my emotional state or I get sick. I have so many things going on pulling me in different directions now. Some good and some I wonder what the hell was I thinking. I woke up this morning praying that I find away to be a better person and the only way I can do that i...